The News

I would post some fancy picture along with this but I have been having problems getting it to open for me.
But I will not drag out the news any longer.
My blog posts are about to get funny again.I have decided to leave the Dialysis job and return to the nursing home.
I have never been real happy there and kept trying to convince myself it would get better.After 9 months it was only getting worse.The gal who was a crab kept being a crab,some days hardly grunting out anything to me at all.Some days she would talk but very little or it would be such a mumbles garble I had no idea what was said.
The stress and job responsibilities was very high.You can easy make life threatening mistakes.
I was getting to the point I was not sleeping well at nights.I would wake up 1-2 hours before I had to get up and just start fretting over things.The past several weeks I was starting to feel physically sick to my stomach.My blood pressure has been higher and I can feel my heart racing.(And no it is not from thinking of you gals that made it race).
This past week there was more added stress and poor communication that caused even more stress and sleeplessness.
Sunday morning I was almost throwing up thinking of having to go to work Monday morning.Best way to describe me was a emotional wreck.
That was when I knew I HAD to do something about it.I knew I had to look for a different job.
I had talked to several friends over the weekend and all said the same thing.You need to quit.
I started praying and asked others to be praying as well.Well God sure did open doors. I applied on line for a job back at the nursing home.When I got home from work on Monday there was a message waiting for me that they wanted to set up an interview.I called first thing on Tuesday morning and was getting interviewed by 11:00 a.m. that same day.Within 30 minutes I was walking out and had been offered the job.
I give all the praise and glory to God for I know he was the one who opened the door.Because on Monday morning a second person had given their notice so there were 2 full time openings on days.
I gave my notice this morning and am still a wreck waiting it out for two more weeks.
Have I learned from this??? YES!!!
As I described it t in my interview, you just picked up the last piece of apple pie from a dessert bar and take it. A little further down the line you see a brownie with hot fudge sauce and a huge pile of whipping cream on top.So you pick that up and put down the pie.You start to eat the fudge brownie only to realize the pie you had in your had was much better but you passed it up.
I was that pie, I missed what I was doing and was happy doing it.
I thought not working every other weekend was the best thing.I now know every other weekend of work is better then stress and unhappiness.
I am lucky to have good blogging friends but also wonderful christian friends who stood by me and prayed for me, and called to see how things had gone.I have not felt so loved and thought of as I was these past few days.I feel I need to share this with my church family as well letting them know how God worked in my life thanks to the prayers of our Life Groups at church.
So it is 2 more weeks of stress then a week of me time and then back to the nursing home.
The bad news is you gals will again be fighting for my affection as I will again have them old gals fighting over me.The good news lots of fun stories again.
things will be better soon,I just need to keep sane for 2 more weeks.
As I sit back and reflect on these past weeks I know it is friends not only who I meet face to face but also who I blog with that have given me my strength and laughs.
There are time I just want to run away,be left alone,cry till the tears no longer will come.Then I go to my computer read some blogs or comments and I feel refreshed.
I read of the long wait to love that child you long to hold.I read of the love for that child you have with you who brings you great joy. And I read of how your kids make you want to crawl in a hole and die because they have embarrassed you totally in public, or you them.I read of a parent getting stuck in a slide at McDonalds..Actually my personal favorite.
Some of you have touched me in ways I have never been touched before,(no not that way Crazy Chick),touched my heart.You have given me a peace you will never know.Advice just a feeling of being cared for.
So to each and every one of you I send my warmest thanks for giving me hope of better and happier days ahead.