Wednesday, January 9, 2008

The News

I would post some fancy picture along with this but I have been having problems getting it to open for me.
But I will not drag out the news any longer.
My blog posts are about to get funny again.I have decided to leave the Dialysis job and return to the nursing home.
I have never been real happy there and kept trying to convince myself it would get better.After 9 months it was only getting worse.The gal who was a crab kept being a crab,some days hardly grunting out anything to me at all.Some days she would talk but very little or it would be such a mumbles garble I had no idea what was said.
The stress and job responsibilities was very high.You can easy make life threatening mistakes.
I was getting to the point I was not sleeping well at nights.I would wake up 1-2 hours before I had to get up and just start fretting over things.The past several weeks I was starting to feel physically sick to my stomach.My blood pressure has been higher and I can feel my heart racing.(And no it is not from thinking of you gals that made it race).
This past week there was more added stress and poor communication that caused even more stress and sleeplessness.
Sunday morning I was almost throwing up thinking of having to go to work Monday morning.Best way to describe me was a emotional wreck.
That was when I knew I HAD to do something about it.I knew I had to look for a different job.
I had talked to several friends over the weekend and all said the same thing.You need to quit.
I started praying and asked others to be praying as well.Well God sure did open doors. I applied on line for a job back at the nursing home.When I got home from work on Monday there was a message waiting for me that they wanted to set up an interview.I called first thing on Tuesday morning and was getting interviewed by 11:00 a.m. that same day.Within 30 minutes I was walking out and had been offered the job.
I give all the praise and glory to God for I know he was the one who opened the door.Because on Monday morning a second person had given their notice so there were 2 full time openings on days.
I gave my notice this morning and am still a wreck waiting it out for two more weeks.
Have I learned from this??? YES!!!
As I described it t in my interview, you just picked up the last piece of apple pie from a dessert bar and take it. A little further down the line you see a brownie with hot fudge sauce and a huge pile of whipping cream on top.So you pick that up and put down the pie.You start to eat the fudge brownie only to realize the pie you had in your had was much better but you passed it up.
I was that pie, I missed what I was doing and was happy doing it.
I thought not working every other weekend was the best thing.I now know every other weekend of work is better then stress and unhappiness.
I am lucky to have good blogging friends but also wonderful christian friends who stood by me and prayed for me, and called to see how things had gone.I have not felt so loved and thought of as I was these past few days.I feel I need to share this with my church family as well letting them know how God worked in my life thanks to the prayers of our Life Groups at church.
So it is 2 more weeks of stress then a week of me time and then back to the nursing home.
The bad news is you gals will again be fighting for my affection as I will again have them old gals fighting over me.The good news lots of fun stories again.
things will be better soon,I just need to keep sane for 2 more weeks.
As I sit back and reflect on these past weeks I know it is friends not only who I meet face to face but also who I blog with that have given me my strength and laughs.
There are time I just want to run away,be left alone,cry till the tears no longer will come.Then I go to my computer read some blogs or comments and I feel refreshed.
I read of the long wait to love that child you long to hold.I read of the love for that child you have with you who brings you great joy. And I read of how your kids make you want to crawl in a hole and die because they have embarrassed you totally in public, or you them.I read of a parent getting stuck in a slide at McDonalds..Actually my personal favorite.
Some of you have touched me in ways I have never been touched before,(no not that way Crazy Chick),touched my heart.You have given me a peace you will never know.Advice just a feeling of being cared for.
So to each and every one of you I send my warmest thanks for giving me hope of better and happier days ahead.


LINDA said...

Brian, I am so glad you have found what you need to keep you sane. A lot of people never do. Your comfort in the job is so much more important than hours or even money. God has answered your prayers by opening up your heart and showing you the way. He wants you to be with the residents, making their lives full and interesting. Hang in there. These two weeks have one positive thing and that is you know exactly when they end! Good days are ahead.....

Lady L said...

Yeah Brian! I'm so glad it worked out for you to go back to the nursing home. God answers prayer.

"Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:4

Steffie B. said...

Welcome sexy beast. You know I am happy for you. Stop by my blog.....I wuv you! ;)

Sue said...

I'm so glad you got your job. It will be good. I worked at a job here in OC for 3 days and I felt so horrible that I couldn't sleep and wanted to throw up over the whole thing, too. It is no fun being in a job that makes you feel miserable.

redmaryjanes said...

Mr. Brian,
You are a very special man and I hope that you know that we are true friends, even though we can't stand in front of you.
I am glad that you are following a path that will bring peace and happiness back into your life. I'm proud of you for trying the dialysis job, but now you know for sure where you are happy and where you belong.

~Amy~ said...

I'm very happy for you and so thankful that God is helping you along this path! This is where you know you should be so YAY FOR YOU! ;) Much love!!!!

nikki said...

I am SO happy for you, my friend!
My husband once had a job that literally made him sick from the stress and was no way to live.

I'm so glad you will be going back to a job that you enjoy!
You can handle another 2 long as you keep looking at the light at the end of the little tunnel.

LaLa said...

Good for you taking the path that will bring you happiness. Hang in there : )

Kim & Jeff said...

Brian - I am so happy for you that you are following the path that will truly make you happy! Can't wait to read your new stories... Hang in there until then!

K1 said...

Good for you. Congratulations.

What a great way to start out the new year... with great promise.

Ashley said...

Yay! This is exciting news. I'm glad the Lord worked it out for you to leave a stressful, toxic place. :)

The Shocks said...

I am so happy that you have been able to realize what you are needing to do for yourself. I am looking forward to your funny stories again.

crazylady said...

Dialysis is stressful and all your decisions can end someone's life abruptly. I KNOW, it's what I do. WHY oh why do think I have become this miserable sod? It has to show up somewhere!
You are so right, finding us and your church friends are the reality check you need to keep and show you there is more to life than greener grass somewhere else. Happiness is a state of mind, if not a state of shock. You have made the right decision. May the next two week pass quickly. I suspect you will sleep much better knowing you dropped the axe.
I eagerly await stories of how you look up grannys skirt and help her put her boobs into her bra from off her legs.
And lastly, check your mailbox in a couple days. You won't remember you have a job ;)

Janet said...

HOORAY FOR YOU, MR. B!!!!! I am so glad! Being in a crappy job is so hard. I am so thankful that God opened another door for you! Very happy for you!


Tiffany said...

I love your new blog look.
Congratulations to you on your job. That is just fantastic!!
I had a job for many years that gave me the same sick feeling and dread. I thank God for opening doors that allowed me to leave that job.
God is so good!
I hope your 2 weeks goes by quickly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whitty's Four said...

Good for you Brian!!

Those old women will be happy to have you back!!

Michelle said...

So happy for you! I understand how hard it is to be in a very stressful work environment and how it can tend to just consume you. I am glad God opened the doors for you to go back and do something that you enjoyed. Many Blessings to you as you get through the next 2 weeks at your current job and move on to your next!

Ashley said...

Praying for you! :)

cougchick said...

Way to go Mr. Brian. Do what makes you happy. Dialysis definitely is not for everyone, actually, it's not for most people (just a few of us wierdos). Can't wait to hear some good stories from the NH life.
Hang in there!

OH MY #6 said...

what a wonderful post!


JulieM said...

I'm glad you have peace about your decison!! I'm sure they love you at the nursing home and will be glad to have you back!