Monday, August 6, 2007

A talk with God

I have been having many talks with God this past week.It is amazing how much praying one can do at 3:30 in the morning driving down the highway.(No I do not close my eyes).
After being harder on myself then my boss herself was I was questioning my career move.I was starting to doubt myself and if I was right for the job.
This morning I decided I needed to change that prayer to... give me the confidence I need,I know I can do it.Change my heart to the way it was several weeks ago.I asked that God just be at my side all day and that I felt him standing beside me and guiding me.
And he was all day!!!!!! I felt so relaxed and like I knew what I was doing just like I did several weeks ago.
I talked to my boss and told her how i had been feeling and she just filled me with encouraging words.
After today I wanted to go back.I did not have that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.
Yes God answered prayers. He was with me and I felt his ever presence.
I did not let satin win any more.I think of what a fun time satin must have been having with me last week.Filling me with doubt, and anger and what else.
It seems we are so often given a chance to do something that would be very pleasing to God if only we fully trusted him.But there is always that other voice that says No you can not do it.It is not for you!!!!!
It is always easy for us to tell others to have faith but when It comes to us we often fall on our faces.
Thanks for all the kind and encouraging word.Mr.Brian is now back to his mischievous naughty self.BEWARE!!!!!
Have a wonderful week.


redmaryjanes said...

I talk with God too.
RedMaryJanes, it just was something I put on the blog on a whim while my husband and I were trying to figure out how to put one together. I had no idea that it would become my signature name or that people would shorten it to RMJ. I LOVE shoes, flashy ones, and one of the first things I bought for my daughter to be were red patent leather mary janes.

crazylady said...

Dialysis is a rough field. But it can be filled with lasting close relationships when you get personal (leave your clothes on) with the patients and hear their stories.
I know you can stick it out.

Beckyb said...

You know we got ya covered in prayer over here - You are a good man with a BIG heart and we love ya!!!!!

Ashley said...

"It is always easy for us to tell others to have faith but when It comes to us we often fall on our faces." OH HOW TRUE!! Thanks for the comments you left ... they mean so much to me! Isn't this blogging world worderful? What a way to lift each other up and carry one another's burdens without ever meeting. Who would've thunk it?

Emmie said...

What a great post. So glad to hear you had a better day. I do also believe in the power of prayer. So glad to hear you're sticking with it and continuing to have faith. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers...=)

nikki said...

Glad you're back!
God is good.

libgran said...

How well I remember those 'sick in the pit of my stomach' feelings. They're useful though..they keep us turning to God and right where we know we should be--trusting HIm and not ourselves. Growing, learning and changing is constant.

Steffie B. said...

With God All Things Are Possible~

but you already knew that....glad things are going better. Your a wonderful man with a huge heart....I think you are going to do just fine ;)

Kim said...

Glad you are feeling better Mr. Brian! Taking that step to talk about it is so hard, even when we know it is the right thing to do. Thanks for sharing your testimony with us.

LaLa said...

So glad you are back on track...we missed you! Keep praying and He will be by your side as you go through your are doing wonderful work for the Kingdom!

K1 said...

James 4:8 said...

Mr. Brian you have such a big warm heart. We girls all love coming here for a big warm hug. Glad you're feeling better.